I didn’t know what to title this post. I have some personal issues going on right now in my family and need lots of prayer. I’m feeling so overwhelmed right now by everything going in my families lives. I’m not normally a complainer, so if this is your first time reading, please don’t think all of my posts are vents. Actually very few are. I’m usually quite positive…I think.
I’m feeling so overwhelmed today because yesterday my son, who is an addict, went to jail and I am the one who sent him there this time. Addiction is a very strong force over someone and my son is right in the throws of his addiction to alcohol, pot and anti-anxiety meds. Basically anything he can get his hands on to get high, he will.
After getting sent home early from work yesterday, he struggled with me to get his pills from me. I warned him to take his hands off of me, and when he did not, I called 911. I was not hurt at all, but the point was I was not going to allow him to manhandle me like that. Plus, I know that I can no longer give him the help he needs. His issues are out of my hands, as I do not have the knowledge to provide the help he needs. So, please by praying for him, for us, and for the rest of the family, as this is just the beginning of a long, hard road.
I am also overwhelmed because in the midst of all of this, it seems as if our financial problems are piling higher and higher. Just as we got a little reprieve on our credit card payment (we worked out a deal with our creditor to lower our payment by $150 a month), we continue to have mounting medical bills and car issues. I just got the bill for some recent lab work at the tune of $17o or something like that, which doesn’t sound like a lot, but when you’re barely making ends meet as it is, $170 seems overwhelming. I’m sure we’ll be able to pay it in small chunks, but right now, it seems overwhelming because of everything else going on.
Our cars all need work and new tires before the snow flies, which could be any day now. One car is in the shop and thankfully we were blessed with some money to get it fixed. But, it still needs new tires. The car Karlie usually drives needs the lights fixed from her little fender bender a couple of weeks ago and the truck needs new wheel bearings. There are more things wrong with each of the vehicles, I just can’t think of them all right now.
I also found out some other stuff that I can’t go into any detail about right now, but God knows what it is, so if you could just pray for our family, that would be great.
Thanks for letting me vent and for your prayers. God bless you all my friends!
Mary, I’m so sorry about your son, but I applaud you for being strong enough to do what needed to be done so he can get the help he needs, and for realizing that you can’t fix this for him. I’ll be keeping you in my thoughts.
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Absolutely will be praying, Mary! Big hugs to you!
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Praying for you, sweetie! I now this must all be very hard on you. {{hugs}}
Praying for you and your family. You did the right thing calling the police.
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Awww Mary my dear dear friend my heart just keeps breaking over and over for you but most of all Brandon. While my addiction to alcohol isn’t nearly as strong as his is, the addiction is still there and something I struggle with on a pretty regular basis. I too know that unless HE is willing to change (as well as myself) no one can give him the help he needs (well except God). My prayer through all of this is that God would touch him while he spends time in jail (kudos to you for doing the right thing & calling the police) and that his eyes will be opened to what he’s doing to his life and that he’ll ‘wake up’ and realize that he needs help.
And if you ever need anything please let me know! I’m just a phone call, IM, text, email, etc away! I’m here for you. I love you & will keep on praying!
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Thanks everyone for the prayers and thoughts. Here’s an update: Brandon will be released on Nov. 23, after which he will enter a 90 day in house rehab program. Please keep praying that he will be healed, delivered from his addiction and that he won’t be in bondage to that any longer. Also pray he lets God back into his life and that he realizes he can’t do it on his own without God.
Thanks again! You all are a true blessing to me 🙂
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